This Friday will mark the end of my 5th month in Taipei–i.e. my half-way point!
I can’t believe how the time has flown.
With four hours of class each day this semester, my work load has more than doubled. Adding on rehearsals for the English teaching Sing-Along show, “Grandpa’s Dream” + prep work for A Nook for Rhyme Crooks events (post to follow in the next week!), all of my free-time for adventures + blogging has vanished.
I was sitting here thinking that I didn’t have any exciting new adventures to share, when I realized that I have yet to share my modeling experience with y’all!
So, two weeks ago I had my first legit catalog modeling shoot.
It. Was. Grueling.
40 looks. 10 hours.
Everyone from the company was lovely, but it was really, really hard work.
I tend to think of myself as someone with a good amount of self confidence, but it was hard to keep it up during the times when one pose took 10 minutes to capture properly. I found myself becoming really self-conscious, which is certain death when you’re standing in front of a camera trying to sell the clothes off your back.
It didn’t help that at one point, while I was changing–so, like, not wearing clothes, being dressed by three different people at once–two of the women started talking about how much they thought I weighed in Chinese.
It didn’t occur to me to feel immediately offended because that’s a cultural thing that happens all the time in Taiwan. But it definitely did not make me feel good about myself. Especially considering the fact that it was a “plus-size” modeling shoot.
In Taiwan, I really am a lot bigger than most women. So, at US size 4, I am plus-sized.
I really admire plus-size models Stateside + felt really strange taking this job because, at least by America’s standards, I am pretty fit + at the small end of normal. I couldn’t help feeling as though I was taking the job from someone more qualified.
Furthermore I felt as though I was perpetuating a false trope about size. But when I mentioned to a male teacher (who is Taiwanese) that I booked a modeling gig for a plus-size clothing catalog, without batting an eye he nodded saying, “Yes, but Taiwanese girls.” He was implying that here I am very much larger.
Anyway, these are the first shots that I’ve gotten from the company:
I’m looking forward to seeing how the rest of the shots come out, but I don’t think I’ll be rushing to do another modelling gig anytime soon.
If only I could have summoned my inner RuPaul during those down moments… YOU. BETTAH. WERK.
So glad you are loving your experience over there! You are stunning, thin, fit, and beautiful and your photos look amazing. I miss you! Come back soon! Bring me pair of those shoes. ;D
I’m about a size 4 or 6 in US sizes, plus I’m of Chinese descent, and I also feel out of place whenever shopping in China or Asia in general! At least you seem to have height on your side though!
Did the ladies know you could understand them? lol Nice post. xxx
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